As time rolls by

I am sitting here at my computer at 5:55 am and have been up all night. I have my days and nights mixed up. I am doing freelance work and find that I write best at night. It is quiet in the house. Andrew is home for the night, at least part of it. He came in around 4am.

I can't believe where my family has come from. My children are all grown. My oldest 33 and my youngest 21. Whew, where did the time go?

Andrew still technically lives at home but only stays here 1-2 nights a week. I think he stays at Tim and Ashley's mostly. He has decided not to move in with them permanently. He and Ashley would not get along. Two more strong willed, independent people cannot be found.

I am struggling both with the worries that some of my children are not where they should be with the Lord. It actually scares me considerably.

Forrest and I are OK. He is still out of work. He claims he will not go back until I am better. That may never happen, who knows. I have limited resources and strength. I can only last a few hours before having to lie down. I am doing freelance work on a few sites. It has brought in about $600 in two weeks. I am getting no help now. I will be filing for disability but that may take a lone time.

I MUST get more work in order to keep up our financial obligations. We have finally paid off the big truck. Whether we can keep it or not is to be determined. We have a great deal of equity in it. The equity would come in handy right now. But my hopes are that I get better and we can camp again. Maybe we could take a few more day trips now and then. I love doing that kind of thing.

Working from home, online is my only option. Employers are not going to hire a person in my condition. I would be a huge liability for them. So, as it stands now, I am still up and going to see if they are any new jobs posted for me to bid on.

Until another time,
T

just keep praying, praying, praying still!